"An eating disorder! It was so hard to admit I didn't want that label I was mad that I was found out Sometimes I want help, while at other times I don't"
One of the toughest aspects of being a teenager or young adult is wanting everyone to think you've got your act together when you're also struggling with questions like, "Who am I?" "What do I want to do with my life?" "Does anyone really love me?" "Will I ever be happy?" "Will I be a success?" "How can I be everything that everyone expects me to be?" and so on. It's hard to maintain a veneer of competence when you're thinking, "I suck at life." While there are many factors that contribute to the development of an eating disorder, this uncertainty about who you are and what you stand for can make you particularly susceptible.
For this reason, the first steps that you need to take in overcoming your eating disorder involve getting to know yourself and your unique situation. This includes examining your discomforts and dissatisfactions with the "reality" of your life. Although it can be difficult, at first, to pinpoint the reasons why an eating disorder is part of that reality, anorexia and bulimia almost always start out with behaviors and thoughts that have pattern and logic, and are voluntary and under your control. As such, they can be overcome. In order to fight them though, you need to understand about eating disorders (which you do if you've read this far) and then apply that information to your life by acknowledging the disorder's role in it, and taking appropriate steps toward change.
These first steps toward recovery are probably the most important ones you'll take. They require the willingness to take an honest look at your life, the courage to describe it accurately, and the desire to find out what your eating disorder does to you and for you. After that, you'll have a good idea of what to put in its place that is more positive and life-enhancing.
Was this article helpful?