With anorexia you lose the ability to see yourself as others see you

You may have trouble understanding or agreeing with their concerns for your health and well being. You think you're on your way to achieving a very important goal and assume everyone who challenges you is jealous. You're able to ignore the reactions and rejection of people who have been part of your life, because the anorexia makes you believe you're strong and superior, in spite of the fact that others see and say that it's making you ill. However physically ill or weak you feel when you're starving yourself this way, however lonely and isolated you are, such things are secondary to the sense of power you believe you have over yourself and your hunger. And because they're secondary, you don't try to fix them.

That sense of control and power will feed you (in the absence of actual food), and it will give you the impetus to continue your disordered patterns. Ironically, though, if you're anorexic, it's the anorexia that has the real control over you.

You're trapped. The anorexic voice in your head is like that of a sleazy friend who is trying to make you believe in things you know are wrong, and make you do things that would normally go against your better judgment. The anorexia makes you think that it is your ally and everyone else is the enemy—a perspective that's very tough to challenge and change. That's why fighting anorexia nervosa can be so hard—it feels like you're fighting yourself.

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